Hey y'all!  My name is Amanda and I am a happily married mother of two beautiful little girls.  I'll be posting on Fridays and I look forward to sharing my journey with you; the good, the bad, and the ugly! 

It took me being tired all the time, having headaches every other day, noticing my 4 year old isn't as active as I'd like her to be and not even wanting to go to out with my husband or friends because of the embarrassement of being fat to FINALLY get on with this bio and get pumped about losing weight again.

Looking back as far back as when I was 11, that's the last time I can recall being thin, though I never felt that way.  It's only through pictures that I see that I was thinner than I thought.  Like a lot of people, I've struggled with weight most of my life.  Back in 2003 I hit an all time high of 280 pounds, I lost 80 pounds in about a years time and kept it off until I met my husband in 2006. Going on dinner dates with him the weight started creeping back up and then in 2007 when I found out I was pregnant with my first daughter it was all downhill from there. By the time she was a year old I was almost back to my orginial weight. I got back on track and lost 60 pounds and then got pregnant for my second daughter only to gain back the 60 pounds I'd lost. As you can see my weight  has been nothing short of a rollercoaster. Now that I'm officially done having kids, I feel ready to lose this weight and KEEP it off!!

Being overweight has severely impacted my life in ways that many can relate to, and my friends may not even realize. Something as simple as grocery shopping has the ability to make me self-conscious.  If I see a thin person, I notice that their cart is filled with fruits, veggies, and lean meats. I think, "yep, that's why they look like that and I look like this." Are others looking at my basket and judging me like I do?

Being overweight has also held me back from enjoying time with friends.  This bothers me the most.  I love my friends and I feel like the odd ball out, to no one's fault but my own, because I don't usually get together with everyone on the weekends because I don't know what I'd wear...or because my rear-end may not fit into the little folding chairs if we sit outside.  I always worry that my friends, who by the way don't know this until now, will eventually get upset with me for not wanting to hang out when they all get together. It's not that I don't want to, it's that I'm embarrassed. No other way to put it. If I don't feel good about myself, then it's hard to have a good time and enjoy being out with friends.  Waterpark?  Sure, my family and I would love to enjoy a summer day at the waterpark but I don't feel comfortable enough with myself to go.

I am starting this journey to be the healthiest mom and wife I can be.  I want to set good examples for my kids, motivate my husband to do the same and I don't want something like my weight to hold me back from enjoying everything that life has to offer. 

With the help of my friends and family, I will get there. 

I hope you follow along on this blog and watch as my friends and I change our lives, one day at a time. 

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