I woke up feeling pretty good. This usually doesn’t happen. I usually wake up and immediately begin to dread the millions of things that I need to accomplish within the next few hours. I was going to start the Body by Vi shakes today, but I did some reading first. Good thing. One of the side effects of the shakes is that it can cause significant drops in blood sugar. I am hypoglycemic. My sugar levels are usually around 74. I can not afford for them to drop any more than that. So, I opted to make myself some breakfast. I am determined to stay within my calorie budget of 1,480. I would normally say that today was pretty uneventful, but I can’t honestly say that today. I finally felt the motivation I’ve been looking for. So, while I didn’t run off and kick ass in a gym, I did tighten the reigns and am buckled down for the weight loss extravaganza! I have even decided to buy a scale! I’m not looking to weigh a certain amount. I am looking to feel great. However, I think that if I buy a scale and have to answer to myself on a daily basis, I’ll be more motivated to improve myself daily. The monthly weigh ins (which will continue at Shannon’s for measurement purposes, etc.) just don’t hold me accountable to myself.
I have not fallen off the wagon! I know it’s only day two, but lately I haven’t exactly been sticking with anything. I feel good. I am extremely proud of myself today. For diner, the family wanted Texas Roadhouse. Oh, let me count the ways I love this place! This was a test for me. I am happy to report that I PASSED with flying colors! I ordered my food as I usually do, however, this time, I immediately sectioned it off and reminded myself that I can spread this meal over the next three days - I don’t have to eat it all in one sitting. I ate about 1/3 of the pulled pork and 2 dinner rolls (LOVE them). I ordered the side of fries to have cheese. Well, I decided to eat the bread and pulled pork first. I decided that I’d rather fill up on those two item. After I finished those, I ate about four fries and decided that I really don’t want them. Aside from beginning to feel full, I DIDN’T EVEN WANT THEM! YAY! I only ate about two bites of the side mashed potatoes as well. I was SO excited to push the food to the side and not care. I ended up giving my fries to A.J. and potatoes to Tony. I don’t miss those items at all!
Today started off by pissing me off. I was supposed to meet with my student advisor to discuss my fall graduation. Well, he was a NO SHOW! Asshole. I know it’s Spring Break. You know it’s Spring Break. YOU SCHEDULED THE EFFING MEETING, NOT ME! Anyway, I did not let this get me off track. I forgot to bring my leftovers for lunch, so I went downstairs and bought the lunch special. It was so good. I had about half of an oven fried chicken breast, a few bites of the plain pasta, and the side salad. Again, I WAS FULL. I have been eating my lunches with a bottle of water. I think this is helping me with being full. I could be wrong, this could all be in my head, but who cares? It’s working! I did eat another 1/3 of my pulled pork for dinner with two more rolls. I gave my leftovers to my puppy. She loved it. I’m still feeling good. I’m still feeling motivated. I even did some research as to what kind of scale I want. I want one that reads the ###.#. I want to see the number after the decimal. I want to know my range of fluctuation. I got excited about a freaking scale. LOL
Today was a HECTIC day. We had a settlement conference in our office which lasted from 9:30 until after I left at 4:45-ish. I had had enough. Not getting into that. Bad moods stem from it. Anyway, I was so busy, that I didn’t have time for breakfast. At about 11:00, I was hungry. I decided to only drink a Special K protein shake. Love those. About an hour later, I went downstairs and got the lunch special, beef brisket, garlic mashed potatoes, and green bean artichoke casserole. Again, I had my meal with a bottle of water. I ate the meat, maybe 3 oz, and about ½ cup of the potatoes. I didn’t even touch the casserole. I know it’s yummy because I’ve had it before. But I wasn’t hungry. I was full. I was satisfied. I don’t NEED to eat EVERYTHING on my plate.
I am learning. I am improving. I am ready.