Monday, March 18, 2013

In A Hopeful Funk

Monday has rolled around again.  Is it me or is time flying?  My weeks tend to blend into one another.  All I do is work, workout, sleep, and start it all over again the next day.  I'm sore all the time because every day I do something different so I'm constantly working a different part of my body, in a different way.  It's nice, and exhausting, but I'm addicted to the gym...and to the classes.  But at the same time, the scale isn't budging.  Since last weigh-in, I'm down about 3 pounds.  WTF?!?!?!?!?

So let's get right to it...

How My Week Went

Monday - 1 mile on treadmill, 500 meter row, then C25K D1/W6.  Body Pump class after work.

Tuesday - 2.5 mile walk for work.  2 miles on treadmill, 2000 meter row ..No class - Had to get home to celebrate my sister's birthday with family.

Wednesday - 2.5 mile walk for work.  2 miles on elliptical, 10 minutes on stairclimber, Body Flow class

Thursday - 3 miles on Elliptical followed by Body Pump class

Friday - C25K D2/W6, 10 minutes on stairclimber, 500 meter row

Saturday - C25K D1/W6, 10 minutes on stairclimber
Sunday - C25K D1/W6 (again), 10 minutes on stairclimber, 3.47 mile bike ride (at home)

Biggest Loser

Holy Crap, Danni and Jeff made it to the finale!  Tonight is the live finale and I cannot WAIT!  I have absolutely loved this season of BL and I'm so sad that after tonight it's over.  I went online and voted for Jackson to be a finalist alongside Danni and Jeff and I hope that others voted the same.  He's awesome and between the three, I don't know who I want to win more!  They are all so deserving!

What's New?

This week has been a challenge.  A big mind game really.  The scale is all but not budging and it is extremely frustrating.  I don't quite know what the problem is, but I'm going to keep going and hope to break out of the weightloss-less funk!  I kid you not... yesterday (for example), I woke up and hit the gym, sweat my butt off, drank my smoothies, spent the day shopping and walking around, headed home and did house work, and then went for a bike ride.  You'd think that I'd be down SOMETHING...nope.  Exact same as the day before.  Not budging one bit.  Frustrating, annoying, but it happens.  Won't bring me down, just motivates me to keep pushing.

My appointment with Pennington has been moved to Friday.  I wanted those 2 additional days to workout and hopefully see a change in the scale.  I also have a lot going on at work Wednesday, due dates, etc., and Friday is wide open.


When I see changes in myself or changes on the scale, I'm quick to want to share the news with everyone.  It's only natural because I'm excited and I want to share my successes.  With sharing my successes comes feedback that I'm not always happy to receive.  My mom, for instance, whenever I've shared something good with her, has always expressed her excitement but she can't simply say "good job," "I'm proud of you," or "keep up the hard work."  She always has to chime in with something else along the lines of how bad I used to look, how my being fat made her feel (and made her cry), and how she's glad I'm finally doing something because of my health and how it worried her.  Those comments aren't helpful and all they do is piss me off!  In fact, I've avoided her phone calls lately because the only big thing I have going on in my life at the moment is losing weight.  It consumes me.  My time is spent at the gym, at work, or at home.  She will inevitably want to ask how I'm doing and with that will come more of the same.  Trust me, I beat myself up enough mentally over my weight.  I don't need the reminders of how bad off I was!  The old Shannon doesn't exist in my world any longer...well, maybe bits of the old me do, but I've changed mentally as well as physically. With this weightloss process I've had to come to a lot of realizations about myself and a lot of what I've discovered I don't like.  I no longer wish to be reminded of the old me and rather than bottling up that anger whenever I am faced with the old me being pointed out, I'll set the story straight ....The old me doesn't live here anymore.  Not just in the sense of weight, but in every way.  I'm not who I was 2 months ago.  I am a work in progress and I think that will take some adjusting for everyone.

This doesn't mean I'll get angry whenever someone points out my weightloss... things like that are encouraging and validating. 

A Ring

I have a beautiful wedding ring set...

But it's time to get it re-sized before I lose it.  It's too big for my ring finger now.  As you can see, it now fits on my thumb effortlessly....(pay no mind to my man fingers...I am in desperate need of a manicure!)

Little things like my wedding ring being too big, or the shirt from last post, make all the difference in my mind.  It's not just about the number on the's about every little thing that shows me in some way that I am headed in the right direction!  And right now, when the scale isn't budging, it's nice to notice all the changes that do show that all the hard work I'm putting in is getting me somewhere!

"For what it’s worth: it’s never too late ... to be whoever you want to be. There’s no time limit, stop whenever you want. You can change or stay the same, there are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. And I hope you see things that startle you. I hope you feel things you never felt before....I hope you live a life you’re proud of.  If you find that you’re not, I hope you have the courage to start all over again." - Eric Roth


  1. Great Job Shannon! 3 lbs added to your 7 from your last weigh-in out your at 10 already!!! That's a great month? (Is that a month total? I think I have that right but I loose track of weeks vs month.) and for a Grand total in two months 31#s? WOW! Plus you still have a week left to kick ass, like you mentioned, apt not till Friday!

    If it were I , I would totally hold off on the sz of the rings. I mean I know your anxious bc they seem big, but your only two months 6 months/a will need to slice them bad boys in half! Don't want to have to re-sz them every two months...Wear them on a chain around your neck? Just my thought...

    GOOD LUCK THIS WEEK BUDDY! Can't wait to hear how you do at your apt!

    Don't be discouraged one bit about those numbers, that is awesome!

  2. wawawhat! doing great buddy! just remember that NSV are just as important as SV's!!!!!!



  3. PS: That's the problem w weighing in daily, a lot of time you will not see change in a day! Everything matters when your weighing in daily. If you are going to do it daily (I know how it is, Im addicted to it too.) You have to make sure your using the same scale, in the same location of the house (not on carpet), at the same time of day. First thing in am is best, wearing nothing but your bday suit every time.
    I know you probally know all that already, just saying, weight fluctuates for lots of reasons. Your nearly finish what month 2?? Your doing awesome! Stay strong, Stay Positive! You got this!

  4. As always, you're doing GREAT!! I am soooooooooo proud of you!! Your staying motivated, the weight is FALLING off of you and EVERYONE can see it!! I always look forward to reading everyone's blog, it's such a huge motivation!!

    Biggest Loser was awesome!! I am so happy to see Danni win the finale!

    Since Saturday Tony and I have been doing 2 shakes a day and eating a healthy dinner and I'm never hungry and it definitely helping with the weight loss! I totally got the idea from what you're doing so thank you! :)

    - Amanda