So let's get right to it...
How My Week Went
Monday - 1 mile on treadmill, 500 meter row, then C25K D1/W6. Body Pump class after work.
Tuesday - 2.5 mile walk for work. 2 miles on treadmill, 2000 meter row ..No class - Had to get home to celebrate my sister's birthday with family.
Wednesday - 2.5 mile walk for work. 2 miles on elliptical, 10 minutes on stairclimber, Body Flow class
Thursday - 3 miles on Elliptical followed by Body Pump class
Friday - C25K D2/W6, 10 minutes on stairclimber, 500 meter row
Saturday - C25K D1/W6, 10 minutes on stairclimber
Sunday - C25K D1/W6 (again), 10 minutes on stairclimber, 3.47 mile bike ride (at home)
Holy Crap, Danni and Jeff made it to the finale! Tonight is the live finale and I cannot WAIT! I have absolutely loved this season of BL and I'm so sad that after tonight it's over. I went online and voted for Jackson to be a finalist alongside Danni and Jeff and I hope that others voted the same. He's awesome and between the three, I don't know who I want to win more! They are all so deserving!
This week has been a challenge. A big mind game really. The scale is all but not budging and it is extremely frustrating. I don't quite know what the problem is, but I'm going to keep going and hope to break out of the weightloss-less funk! I kid you not... yesterday (for example), I woke up and hit the gym, sweat my butt off, drank my smoothies, spent the day shopping and walking around, headed home and did house work, and then went for a bike ride. You'd think that I'd be down SOMETHING...nope. Exact same as the day before. Not budging one bit. Frustrating, annoying, but it happens. Won't bring me down, just motivates me to keep pushing.
My appointment with Pennington has been moved to Friday. I wanted those 2 additional days to workout and hopefully see a change in the scale. I also have a lot going on at work Wednesday, due dates, etc., and Friday is wide open.
ThoughtsWhen I see changes in myself or changes on the scale, I'm quick to want to share the news with everyone. It's only natural because I'm excited and I want to share my successes. With sharing my successes comes feedback that I'm not always happy to receive. My mom, for instance, whenever I've shared something good with her, has always expressed her excitement but she can't simply say "good job," "I'm proud of you," or "keep up the hard work." She always has to chime in with something else along the lines of how bad I used to look, how my being fat made her feel (and made her cry), and how she's glad I'm finally doing something because of my health and how it worried her. Those comments aren't helpful and all they do is piss me off! In fact, I've avoided her phone calls lately because the only big thing I have going on in my life at the moment is losing weight. It consumes me. My time is spent at the gym, at work, or at home. She will inevitably want to ask how I'm doing and with that will come more of the same. Trust me, I beat myself up enough mentally over my weight. I don't need the reminders of how bad off I was! The old Shannon doesn't exist in my world any longer...well, maybe bits of the old me do, but I've changed mentally as well as physically. With this weightloss process I've had to come to a lot of realizations about myself and a lot of what I've discovered I don't like. I no longer wish to be reminded of the old me and rather than bottling up that anger whenever I am faced with the old me being pointed out, I'll set the story straight ....The old me doesn't live here anymore. Not just in the sense of weight, but in every way. I'm not who I was 2 months ago. I am a work in progress and I think that will take some adjusting for everyone.
This doesn't mean I'll get angry whenever someone points out my weightloss... things like that are encouraging and validating.
I have a beautiful wedding ring set...
But it's time to get it re-sized before I lose it. It's too big for my ring finger now. As you can see, it now fits on my thumb effortlessly....(pay no mind to my man fingers...I am in desperate need of a manicure!)
Little things like my wedding ring being too big, or the shirt from last post, make all the difference in my mind. It's not just about the number on the scale...it's about every little thing that shows me in some way that I am headed in the right direction! And right now, when the scale isn't budging, it's nice to notice all the changes that do show that all the hard work I'm putting in is getting me somewhere!
"For what it’s worth: it’s never too late ... to be whoever you want to be. There’s no time limit, stop whenever you want. You can change or stay the same, there are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. And I hope you see things that startle you. I hope you feel things you never felt before....I hope you live a life you’re proud of. If you find that you’re not, I hope you have the courage to start all over again." - Eric Roth